Funk Royalty

2005-06-08T06:18:00.000-07:00

I shouldn't be blogging.
I shouldn't be blogging.
I shouldn't be blogging.

But I am.

Hahahahaha. I am tired kasi. My whole family is outside in the sala. I'm in my room. Faaaaack. There is sooooooo much to do. I have to study for Accounting, then I have to work on our Sociology survey, and lastly! I have to look for songs that would fit our "Magic Show" video. Therefore I am left to listen to the Cirque de Solie cd... It's okay but... I WANT TO LISTEN TO DREAM THEATER.

Arbie is soooo David Blaine. From the expression, the movement and the tricks. But he's like a Korean version. Hahahahaha!

Magaling rin si Mikkel. For some strange reason, I can't get over his name. It just sounds sooooo cool. Mikkkel.

So there. Gad. This Cirque cd is getting to my nerves. CAN'T SOMEONE ELSE DO THIS?! Haaay. I'm glad I'm not a super hyper active member of TAPAT yet, because I would just dieeeeeee. Pagod. Homework. Projects. School. Variety show. ROTC PA AT 6 FUCKING AM ON SATURDAY. Until 12. Then an hour break. Tapos Leadership training hanggang 4.

Aiii... Well the stress if fun, in a sense. I'm kinda pissed cause I left my phone in my mom's office. I hope no one stooole it yet. Shhhhet.

Well, I should go and study.
Or go and sleep, then study?
Hmmm...

2005-06-06T07:42:00.000-07:00

I'm a loser. Hahahaha.

I miss people. I miss Cai, Marga, Mickey, Tami, Asado, Nitra, Ej, Ephi, Sacki, Patty Layug, and more.

*sigh*

First day funk

2005-06-02T11:10:00.000-07:00

Hahaha! Yeah baby. Just made the intro kapa.

I'm auditioning for pops, and I'm scared shitless.

A Little Letter written for you.

2005-05-29T07:32:00.000-07:00

Hey you.

You know who you are. You're the only one who reads my blog.
I want to say I'm sorry. I know that I've been a bitch lately, and you (kind of) don't deserve the treatment I've been giving you. It's just. I'm mad at myself, and I'm taking it out on you, because I can't deal with it very well. It's my fault for thinking, or rather hoping, too much and expecting things. I was disappointed. I was "dreaming about too much meaning" and it was stupid of me to do so. I know it shouldn't mean anything, because it doesn't mean anything to you. Talk to me. Text me or give me a call. Ym me or whatever. I want to patch things up.

2005-05-28T07:45:00.000-07:00

The heavens paint a silent symphony
As Orion shines for me
Are you there feeling the same as I
Whispering love songs to the lonely sky
And though I don't know where you are
I know you must be there
So for now I'll lay me down to sleep
and dream and maybe tomorrow
I'll kiss the air that covers you -
I'll watch the moonlight dance in your eyes
I'll hold you safely in my arms -
Maybe tomorrow you'll be mine
I said a prayer for you today
May troubles be far away
And I'll be here on bended knee
Until the day you say you'll marry me
And though I don't know who you are
I know you're beautiful
So for now I'll lay me down to sleep
and dream and maybe tomorrow
I'll kiss the air that covers you -
I'll watch the moonlight dance in your eyes
I'll hold you safely in my arms -
Maybe tomorrow you'll be mine
I'll be waiting patiently - promise you will wait for me
No one else to hold on to - until I'm holding you
I'll kiss the air that covers you -
I'll watch the moonlight dance in your eyes
I'll hold you safely in my arms -
Maybe tomorrow
I'll love you more than life itself -
I'll watch the moonlight dance in your eyes
I'll hold you safely in my arms -
Maybe tomorrow

2005-05-28T04:12:00.000-07:00

Here is my master plan.

Bam and I will form an all girl band. Then we'll have a gig dominated by heavy metal male rockers. We'll be wearing these bright colored shirts and have daisies and look really feminine. Tapos, we'll go up on stage acting really demure, especially while introducing our song. Bam will say something like, "Hi. We're the Sugar muffins and we're going to play for you" while acting all cute. Then!!!!

We play Sigaro.

2005-05-24T13:44:00.000-07:00

I hate this.
I hate you.
I need to get you out of my life.
But I can't. I need you.

College. and the weekend.

2005-05-23T08:01:00.000-07:00

I'm not going to be prim and proper this post. I'll let my semi supressed side come out.

POTA. Iba talaga ang pagod na dinaladala ng colehiyo.
It was the first day of class today, and I'm sooo fuken tired. I only got 3 hours of sleep last night, and I doubt I will get sleep tonight. THAT SUCKS ASSS MAN.

Today was fun though. Hahahaha.
I enjoyed. But I'm thinking if today, I'm tired, HOW WILL I BE THROUGH OUT THE YEAR?

Gad. Hahahaha. I have no EQ, and I'm a drama queen. What a marvelous combination!

Tonight I will not sleep. I promised myself I would finish clearing up my room and start working on my requirements. That's sucks, considering the fact that I've walked a lot, I only slept 3 hours (which is impossible for a 3-toed sloth like me) last night, and I was sick (due to the combination of asti+beer+empy+emptystomach friday) last saturday.

PAKSHET PARE. dshetdatpakedizadepakshet.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Stupid post.
I love La Salle. ANIMO LA SALLE.

2005-05-22T08:10:00.000-07:00

It's hurting again.

God, I am such a fucking idiot.

Train of Thought

2005-05-22T00:12:00.000-07:00

School starts tomorrow. Yuck.
Can't get over summer. Sigh.
Got sick yesterday. Ugh.
My mom thinks I may have ulcer and suspects that I go on "crash diets".
Total BS. Hahahah. I'm not that stupid.

My uncle sent me Dream Theater's Train of Thought CD for my grad gift.
I got it yesterday, and it's been playing non-stop. Lalo na yung track 6. Iba talaga pag-instrumental. STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS!

I will change my layout. It sucks.

2005-05-18T09:57:00.000-07:00

Today was beautiful. :)

I'm really tired from cleaning my room, but I had a good day. I was supposed to go to La Salle earlier this afternoon, but my mom completely forgot about me - sayang! But I guess it didn't turn out so bad. My brother and I decided to walk to the mall, and on our way back we got caught in the rain. IT WAS THE BEST. I got back home dripping wet from our adventure. We ran across Ayala Avenue, dodging cars, completely blinded by the "storm". The guards and drivers who met us at the entrance of our humble home (for those who don't know, I live in an apartment) had a good laugh. It really put me in a good mood. I love the rain. I love it when it rains hard. I just hope the rain wasn't acidic though ... but my guess it probably was. I'm getting a bit of a rash. Hahahah!

Hope the bandits started a mosh pit. I texted Karl and ordered him to cheer for them. Hahaha!

Well hope you all enjoyed today. Tomorrow, I might watch House of Wax with my brother and Beefy! Hahaha! I love watching b-movies with those galuts. Their comments are so funny, that you don't notice how bad the movie is.

Bring back the 80's!

2005-05-15T01:19:00.000-07:00

Today, I felt like EJ. Hahahaha!

Nothing malicious you sick psycho freaks. I happened to be wearing something close to his "dream" outfit/look. Yes my friends, I was dressed like someone from the 80's/late 90's, but thankfully, I didn't look that bad. Hahahaha. I was stuck with a pair of semi-tight faded blue jeans that were so high cut (the button was past my navel), one of those loose long-sleeved button polo's and white converse all-stars, due to the lack of clothes.

Hahaha! But all in all it was an okay day. My mom got me a blazer and we watched Good Company. Cute. I feel bummed that college starts in a week. Argggh. One more week of summer! Ugh. I promise myself to be out everyday, or have people come over.

WHO WANTS TO COME OVER TO MAKE BROWNIES/COOKIES WITH ME??!??!?!? :D
Then we can walk to Glorietta and hang out, and even go to the little guitar haven at parksquare.

Habitat

2005-05-13T22:03:00.000-07:00

Just came from habitat! More later!!!

I'm going to rest, then go driving in a while. WHEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My dad wants me to drive down Edsa though... Eek.

The template baby!!!!

2005-05-13T07:52:00.000-07:00

I JUST LOOOOOVE MY TEMPLATE!!!!!!

Fudging a! Pinaghirapan ko to!
Wheeeee!!!!

I'm happy, even though I don't get to catch the Happy Meals.
I'm just really glad that tomorrow, I'm bonding with my dad (we're going to go to Habitat). Then! After that, my ickle little brother is coming home! Yay!

Next week is my last week of freedom, so I plan to jam pack it with activities.
La Salle on Monday and Tuesday, (hopefully) Bandido gig on Tuesday, Crash the car on Wednesday (Hahahah!), Star Wars on Thursday, Bandido gig again on Friday (sana papayagan ako! or sleepover with Bambam), Bandido gig again on Saturday!

I should make it up to those guys. Hahahaha!
Now I'm off to clean my room.

But ohh fudge. I want cookies. Like gourmet cookies and milk.......
Rawr.

KAKA GIRLY DAYS ARE BACKK!!!!

2005-05-12T10:48:00.000-07:00

AHHHH!!!!

I FEEL LIKE SUCH AN AIRHEAD! LIKE TOOOOTALLY!

I JUST LIKE WATCHED CLUELESS WHILE DRINKING DIET COKE!

Hahahahahahahahahahaha!!!

But in fairness, it was a really cute movie. :D
It was a real no brainer but Alicia Silverstone has a way of making it fun.
I loved her and Josh, and the teachers falling in love!

AII! Hahaha. I'm all fuzzy inside now. *smile*

Take me baby or leave me!

2005-05-08T09:05:00.000-07:00

No one will understand this post, except for my beloved Pookie - I mean, Aunt, Krys.

I've returned to the ways of Rent! Hahahahahhaha!
And now I'm listening to Take Me or Leave Me (then I will listen to Over the Moon). God I miss this play.

And nowww...
I miss acting.
I miss being on stage.
I miss all the practicing.
I miss Rep.
I miss Theatrica? Nah. I don't. I didn't like the people there, sep for a handful. Hehehe. Evil!

Oh. And I also miss Jade. I miss re-enacting the lesbian scense of Rent with her along the corridor. And now, I miss Maria. Hahah! Those girls are fun to dance with. Hahahahahahaha!!!!!

I feel like Maureen Johnson right now. :D

2005-05-05T09:04:00.000-07:00

Some one enroll me in an anger management course, before I bite somebody's head off.

Rawr.

2005-05-04T10:00:00.000-07:00

I haven't been much of an angry person for a long time, but today.
I'm really really really really pissed.

WHY I'M SO PISSED OFF:

1. I'm a La Sallite. NOT AN ATENEAN

2. Everyone's backing out on me again!

No one's going to go swimming with me tomorrow.

Bam's not swimming. She'll be there because she needs an illustrator.

3. My heart is broken. AGAIN

4. I'm pmsing. (Yesterday was the last day, but the effects are present still)

5. MY COMPUTER HAS REJECTED INCUBUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That takes the cake. I was looking forward to deflowering my Red Rocks DVD, but noooo... It hangs whenever I play it! Fuck.

2005-05-03T23:53:00.000-07:00

I wish I never had a heart.

I'm going crazy.
Someone please, save me from insanity.

2005-05-01T22:56:00.000-07:00

I feel sooo happy! I feel so light!

Whee!!!

It's like the burden, and that heavy feeling that has been bugging me down for the past week was finally lifted. Today, I know I won't stain my pillow with tears. Today, I know I can smile and bounce and be happy, even if he's around. Today, I know I won't care. Yeah, baby!

*hugs everyone around*

I LOVE YOU ALL!

2005-04-30T11:13:00.000-07:00

I really do not know what to make of today.

...
I need to draw.

2005-04-29T07:31:00.000-07:00

It just hurts so bad.
Ugh. Sometimes, I want to shoot myself for my stupidity.

Hahahhaha. I guess that's what you get for playing with fire.
Tuloy, nasunog yung mga daliri ko. Potik.

2005-04-27T12:39:00.000-07:00

FUCK YOU VERY MUCH EMPERADOR!

Let the ditz come out.

2005-04-25T09:24:00.000-07:00

I think I want to be bulimic and lesbian.

2005-04-24T08:46:00.000-07:00

I'll be frank and put it simply.

I'm going to get burnt.
I know it.
I'm too dumb to stop.

Someone kindly shoot my heart, tear it to peices and freeze it.
I don't want it. I don't need it.

May you forever burn in hell Cupid.

2005-04-23T22:56:00.000-07:00

I feel choked.

Go ahead Mother, smother me, and let me die.

Musink

2005-04-23T08:18:00.000-07:00

Haha. Yes, I know, musink = very Mill Vazquez.

But I can't help it! Right now, I've re-discovered the wonders of ink and paper! Yeah! Haha. I'm working on my so called "masterpeice" which will serve as the background of this blog (when I finally get to scan it). It's a tribute to the first real bass that I've semi-possessed. For those who remember it, it was the beautiful black jazz FENDER bass that was practically a relic, and lent to me by my beloved Auntie Krys. I love drawing. It's such fun!

Whee! And I'm listening to Led Zeppelin. I loooooove Rock and Roll and Black dog! :D
As Bam would say, "Aw Baby! Aw!"

Hahahahha!

Summer

2005-04-21T12:03:00.000-07:00

I feel all artsy fartsy.

Summer brings out both the best and the worst in me.
The abundance of time and lack of activity makes me extremely lazy and lackadaisical. (You know, I still don't know how to spell that word! Hahaha!) But on the other hand, it brings out my creative side.

I like it.
Summer provides self-time for me. It's like a plain white canvas waiting to be played upon, stretching my horizons and challenging my imagination. Being me, I can't wait to play upon the canvass. I can't wait to draw, to paint, to create. And that's exactly what I want to do now.

I want to write.
I want to draw.
I want to paint.
I want to dance!
I want to make music!
And I want to jam!

I just love the emotional high! It's simply overwhelming.

I have so many projects in store.
I want to write a story, nothing like the comedic short stories I used to write or the fantasy stories about kids (yes, very Harry Potter). I want to write something different. Something more mature. I plan to write an erotica, similar to that of Anne Rice. More than her writing style, I love the intesity of the emotions and how these emotions are built up. I plan to have a bass binder with tabs and scratch paper for when I make kapa. (I have a problem of forgetting what I kapa. Hehehe.) Then, I plan to draw again! I miss it. I used to have sketch books filled with doodles, and I'd want to do that! But again, I think I'd like to do something different. I want to draw like Mill. I don't think I'd like to conform myself to little happy cartoons. Oooh! I've got canvass. I want to paint pictures for bam's room. :D

The wonders of self-expression.
The wonders of art.
The beauty of color.

Having feelings and emotions just makes me feel so human!
Personally, I think that is what sets us apart.
It is what gives us our soul.

2005-04-20T23:02:00.000-07:00

I'm back!
I'll make kwento later.But firrst...

a.) Post the names of 20 of your favorite musicians.
b.) See who can guess which is your favorite song by each.
c.) Once someone guesses right, bold that row and include the song.

1. Incubus - Summer Romance (as guessed by EJ/my only blog reader. Hahah!)
2. 311 - Love Song (Asado!)
3. Velvet Revolver - Fall to Peices (Asado again!)
4. Happy Meals - Luna (EJ Weejay!)
5. Imago - Akap (Asado ulit!)
6. P.O.T. - Ulitin (by... "MOMMAAA!!!" Ej! Hahaha!)
7. Kapatid - Prayer (Mill Vazquez, the other happy Vazquez!)
8. Third World Project
9. Liquid Jane (Tami, I will kill you if you don't get this right)
10. Loquy (Same goes for you, Krys)
11. No Doubt - Don't Speak (Asado)
12. Pearl Jam
13. Sandwich - Butterfly Carnival (EJ Arf!)
14. Eraserheads - El Bimbo (Fumoon)
15. The Dawn - Tulad ng Dati (Nikawl)
16. The Killers - Mr. Brightside (Nicole for the enth time! Haha!)
17. Moby
18. Jamiroquai - Virtual Insanity (EJ ... again)
19. Kjwan - Someday (EJ)
20. Reel Big Fish - She's Got A Girlfriend Now (Sir Ja)

Clue: The first five are love songs.
Oh, and I just realized I like Led Zep! Yay!

Bratty

2005-04-20T10:28:00.000-07:00

Ahhh...

This is what I love about this blog. No one reads it... At least, I think that no one reads it.

Hay... I got off the phone with Hannah earlier, and she asked me what college and course will I be going to and taking (respectively). I said La Salle, and I'll be taking a business course. Okay, I know this sounds overly dramatic but I was forced to do it. It's like my whole life, I've been forced to do things, and later on, I'm going to be forced to do what my family wants me to. Out of respect for them, and love, I have the tendency to follow.

I don't know. I'm debating on whether or not it is respect, love or my subconscious practicality that makes me follow and abide by every rule they impose upon me. But all I know is that I hate it. It's not because I don't want to do what they tell me too. It's just that, I feel so restricted and choked (like I always have). I feel like I can never be myself, and that I am forever bound to this.

I hate it.

I know that I should be thankful for everything that I have been given, but somehow, I feel like I wish I got something else. I mean honestly, I wouldn't mind being an average Joe and having more freedom than this. I wouldn't have to pretend anymore. I always always have to pretend to be a good wholesome girl everytime I'm with my grandparents and relatives. Everything is SOOO FORMAL with them. It's so cold! And that's not me! People who know me know that I'm a warm person, and I loooove giving hugs. I love getting hugs. I am extreeeeeemely makulit. I like interacting with people and making friends! Life has to be filled with color, emotion and passion! But the life or path set for me is soo devoid of that.

Argh.
I wish I could break away.

Sometimes I think I'd like to go off and do music, but I know that I'm not good enough. Well, actually it's not that. People can do anything they set their mind to. Music, jamming is all just a hobby and I don't take it seriously. So, that doesn't really bug me.

But what I'd really like to do is break away from all of this business kakaness, and do something more fruitful. I want to put up a charity or actually do something that would help the plight of people. But the thing is, I know that I'm not going to be respected for it. My great grandmother gave a lot of her money to the poor and to the Church, and she gets mocked for it by family members. WTF is that?

Sometimes I wish I were strong enough to break away.
Don't get me wrong, I love my family. It's just... I don't think its the right environment for me. I know that I'm not cut out for what they want or expect me to be.

Ugh. Whatever.
It's just another kaka post again.

Guessing game!

2005-04-15T11:49:00.000-07:00

I'm going to copy Ej. Hahahah!
But I'm too lazy to make descriptions of 15 people.
Gusto ko, 7 lang. Hahahaha!!!!

1. She's the strongest person I know, even though she seems like a baby! Not in a mean way, she's just got the cutey factor, and we all baby her!!! Oh, and she is also one of the most wonderful people in the WORLD! I love this girl to death, and I owe her everything when it comes to music, and sanity. She's the one who taught me how to strum, and really got me into playing. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be playing the bass. I'd be more insane. And more unstable. We've gone through hell together, and she is someone I consider to be one of my bestest friends.

2. She is my favorite bandmate with whom I share a strange mental connection with! Hahaha. I've known her since FOREVER, and she's been a friend since the 5th grade (although we didn't get a long for a while). She's the jun jun of our band, and even though we have our "alitan's" (my fault usually! Hahaha) we seem to patch it up. I'm glad to have her as a bandmate! And I'm proud to say that we're closer now than we ever were! I love this girl! Hahaha. And she loves me! And my crush.

3. He's my new crush. Nuff said.
*Note: I will kill anyone who tries to guess who this is here. Or puts it in the comments

4. This guy is a polar bear! He is the most amazing bass player I've met and I'm glad I kinda got to know him better these past few days. I never saw past the bass-playing/teddy bear/fuzzy wuzzy cuddly aspects of him, until recently. It turns out he's a real good listener, good at giving advice, and understanding! Hahaha. And I sure hope as hell, he can keep secrets.

5. Hahaha. This guy has to be the most eccentric guy on earth. I remember the first time I met him, he had one of those cow boy hats on, and looked like he was going to drown in it. Hahaha! And I remember one of the first things we talked about was Third World Project. I knew from the very very beginning that he was going to be a rockstar. I could just feel it in my bones. Well, actually, when I saw their band I knew that all of them had the potential to be big. It was the same way I felt when I first met Bam. And I was right! Now he's a big shot, and tries to act it. But no matter how hard he tries, he's still a baby. Well, at least in my eyes.

6. This guy at first seemed non-descript. Pero kapag nagkwekwento it, grabe! Parang ibang tao talaga! Hahahaha!!!! He's sooo funny and animated (I don't think he knows it though), but extremely mature for his age. He's got a such profound way of thinking, which is atypical of rockstar boys. Well, in his case he's a budding one. This guy is going to do a lot of great things someday. He's extremely talented, and I'm afraid I underestimated him before. There are so many qualities about this guy that are just so admirable. For one thing, he's mature, for another thing, he's extremely faithful. But don't try to be waaayy toooo nice my friend,because you might end up a doormat. :(

7. I just met this guy "formally" last Monday, (I didn't remember him the first time we met, and the second time we did meet, I was drunk) and he gives me the creeps. Already he's given me a hard time! Ahh!! And I'm trying to be patient! He's really really nice, but a bit on the makulit side (and I'm queen of kulit, take note). And... uhm. Really... Ang bilis mo pare! Relax ka lang! I think he lacks drama in his life. lol.

Guess who you are!

2005-04-15T02:44:00.000-07:00

I'm going to Singapore!

Tomorrow!
Whee!

2005-04-14T08:38:00.000-07:00

How to make a san

Ingredients:
1 part success
3 parts silliness
3 parts beauty

Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Serve with a slice of lovability and a pinch of salt. Yum!

2005-04-14T03:53:00.000-07:00

Fuck Fuckedy Fuck Fuck.

I never ever ever thought I would have this problem...

*cries*

Why does love have to be so effing complicated?

2005-04-03T21:59:00.000-07:00

Mahirap magkabanda.

I never post on this blog, but right now, I don't think I have anywhere else to post.

Hay...
Complications with the vocalist. Again. I really don't like the way she's sooo anti-drummer. It's annoying. She just doesn't get it. She keeps thinking that our drummer should be replaced because she isn't really into it and doesn't care at all. But the fact is, this whole band thing just doesn't work out! As much as we love her, and we love each other, we just don't get along as a band. How do we tell her that without hurting her feelings?!

Ai. COMPLICATED.

2005-03-11T04:37:00.000-08:00

Wow. First blog...

CAN SOMEONE HELP ME?!